Monday, June 24, 2013

Closing this Chapter

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We sent it all back today.  Six boxes, three still unused.  Two dosing diarys and a two page explanation of what we saw over the past two weeks including behavior charts.

Fed Ex came and picked up the package.  Ayden told me no as I handed the box he had watched me pack up to the delivery person.  He then had a full blown meltdown after he left.  All I could do was hold him and cry with him.  Once he recovered he planted himself at the front window and has been staring out it since then.

We may be closing the chapter on this trial, but will we keep moving forward .  One step at a time, one day at a time.

The story below is one that Ayden received as a gift when he finished pre-school, I find it rather fitting.

I knew you could!  And you knew it, too --
That you'd come out on top after all you've been through.

And from here you'll go farther and see brand-new sights.
You'll face brand-new hills that rise to new heights.

I wish I could show you the stops that you'll visit,

But that isn't my choice to make for you, is it?
Instead, I can tell you some lessons and tales
That I've learned and relearned in my time on the rails.

First of all, you must find your own track,

So you can start right away and not be held back.
But which track is yours? Well that just depends
On which way it's going and where it might end.

Different tracks wind around,

over, under, and through,
So pick out the one
that works best for you.

Though the trackyou start out on
will feel like "the one,"
You might take a few more before you are done.
An now, with your eyes on your new destination,
Start up your wheels and roll out of the station.

On your new trip you'll make plenty of stops,

In deep river valleys and on high moutaintops.
Some will surprise you and some will be planned,
And you'll roll through each one saying, "I think I can!"

You'll go through tunnels, surrounded by dark.

An you'll wish for a light or even a spark.
You might get scared or a little bit sad,
Wondering if maybe your track has gone bad.

So here's some advice to help ease your doubt:
The track you took in must also go out.
So steady yourself and just keep on going --
Before you know it, some light will be showing.
And then you'll be out, heading to a new place.

You'll be ready for the next tunnel you face.

Sometimes you'll look up and see planes in the sky,

And you'll think to yourself, "I wish I could fly."
The cars on the roads will seem quick and free --
You'll feel stuck on your track and think "I wish that was me"

But the plane might wish he could get out of the air,

Saying, "I wish I could travel like that train down there."
The cars will watch as you speed right along.
And they'll look at each other,
"Look how fast and how strong!"
Don't worry about not being a car or plane,
Just enjoy the trip you'll take as a train.

Don't be afraid to too your own horn,

If you need to be heard or there are people to warn.
Or if being yourself makes you so proud,
That you want to share it and sing it out loud.

You'll follow your track
through twists and through bends,
And stop at new stops and pick up new friends.
They'll all come aboard with smiles and greetings.
You'll have such great times
with the people you're meeting.

On the days when you're sad and feel you can't go.

Speak up and ask a friend for a tow.
That's what friends do, so don't be afraid.
You'd do the same if your friend needed aid.

You might stop at stops that you never have toured,

And look for new friends, but they won't come aboard.
So you'll have to head out with a creak and a groan,
Setting out once again on your track, all alone.

Try to remember the world is so wide,

Full of all kinds of people with their own trains to ride.
Just stay true to yourself as you travel your track,
With no second guessing and no looking back.

Once you're on the right track, you'll probably say,

"This one is mine -- I'm here to stay."
Try to enjoy the track that you choose --
Stop now and then to take in the views.

If you rush forward as a general rule,
Before you arrive, you could run out of fuel.
Don't overwork, but save up some strength.
That way, everyday, you can travel great lengths.

You'll need all that strength on the days when you're stuck,

Or tired, or sad, or just out of luck.
When your belief in yourself doesn't feel quite so pure.
And your "I think I can" doesn't sound quite so sure.

That's when ot push and to strive and to strain.

To show the world you're not a giving up train.
And you're wise if you know that doing your best
Means that sometimes you should just slow down and rest.

Speeding through your whole trip will bring only sorrow.
So slow down today and be happy tomorrow.

There's more about life that you'll learn as you go,

Because figuring things out on your own helps you grow.
Just trust in yourself, and you'll climb up every hill.
Say "I think I can!" and you know what?
You will!
-- I Knew You Could, Written by Craig Dorfman


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